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[27 Mar 2006|02:22pm] |
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Life is like a box of chocolate; you never know what you're going to get.
Just realize that, please. You just handed the bad one.
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[21 Feb 2006|12:47am] |
FOR PERSONAL PURPOSES...
I HAVE DECIDED TO MAKE THIS JOURNAL PRIVATE.
CONTACT ME IF YOU WANT IN.
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[03 Feb 2006|03:57pm] |
A song written by Chris Kruise & Brett Eicher for moi:
Shes a happy birthday princess
in her happy birthday world
giv'n treats to all the class
shes such a happy girl
the one and only day
today its her birthday
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!! I am so happy. I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY. It has got to be one of my most favorite days, if not the most, of the year! Being 19 sucks, my last year as a teen. AHH I am getting so old! Lol. THANKS again...I LOVE YOU ALL!
*MUAH!!!! ♥ mi
EDIT: I am an idiot. I spelled throne, thrown. That's what you get for having too much fun and no sleep.
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[01 Feb 2006|01:56am] |
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I, Fluorine, the most reactive element and the most electronegative element out there chooses you, Hydrated proton, to share an electron with me. Since I am the all mighty, you should take this as the best offer of your life. Treat it well in all of your one electron power to bond with me and never let me go. We will hybridize and terrorize the world together. Especially with that aqueous glass. And don't worry, we will not become soluble in pathetic solvents like water! Pssh. Water, eat our dust!
But as a warning to you, if you were to ever leave my orbital and form bonds with another compound/element, you are stepping out forever. I will not longer have any desire to take back your lone electron or consider sharing any of mine. Haha but I know you will not dare to mess with the all mighty and powerful Fluorine like that. I can totally whoop your butt and you know it!
I, as being the all mighty, promise to take you, little proton donor, as mine and form one amazingly strong bond with you. Together we will be as lame and nerdy as we want because as HF, we are perfect.
You and I make a perfect team. One that's unbreakable with amazing chemistry.
Lol..heart you dork!
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[30 Jan 2006|10:08pm] |
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Today my Biology teacher said
I THINK DNA IS SEXY!
I couldn't stop laughing. Wooh what a nerd I am.
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[12 Jan 2006|03:23pm] |
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Just for the record, I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE being watched. If you stalkers out there didn't get that, I HATE BEING WATCHED! I don't want to know what you think of me or why in the world you are watching me, but PLEASE don't make it so obvious. It is very uncomfortable to do anything naturally when you KNOW you're being watched! It's annoying. NO one wins out of this. All you're doing is pissing me off so I'll NEVER be nice to you so you just get a grumpy me walking around talking shit about you.
For those of you that get the misconception that I like to be stared at...I DONT!!! I hate people watching me to see where I go, what I do, what I eat, or just anything that I do. It's called creepy! Yeah, try living your life underneath the microscope. Oh wait, no one would want to do such a thing because most people HATE being stalked! GAH I have one on LJ too (not gonna name) that pops out of no where reading my posts. I don't want to know if creeps read my posts, just don't bug me please. If it's obvious that I am annoyed by you, it's a good sign to stay away.
One of the things that annoys me the most is when people watch me while I type, especially if whatever I am typing has nothing to do with YOU! God, like today I was sitting there reading what my lover writes to me and responding to him..out of no where, I turn to see this girl watch me closely and reading everything that he wrote and what I am writing. GOD! Is it THAT interesting? My life is very boring people, I can assure you of that. Please just give me my space. I don't squeeze into yours so don't try to get into mine. If I have something to share, I will, but most of the time, I don't.
FUCK I just hate being stared at all the time! My face is hella ugly. It has many zits and scars...don't look at it for you will be scorned by my evil eyes.
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[26 Dec 2005|02:21am] |
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Let's recap Christmas!
This is the list that I WANTED for Christmas. The things that I did get, I crossed out.
Christmas List 2005
The OC Season 2
Cannon Camera S400 or S500
Sweaters
New Glasses
Christmas Eeyore for my collection
Picture frames
Pucca stuff
Hello Kitty
Avril Lavigne CDs (I lost them!)
Kelly Clarkson CD
Ashlee Simpson CD
VAIO laptop (hehe!!)
Snowboarding gloves & goggles (PINK plz)
Additional Things that I got.
. MONEY
. Nintendo DS
. Harry Potter T-shirt
. Gloves
. Nintendogs
. MONEY
. Gift Card to Starbucks
. Sidekick 2
I think Christmas this year was a success. Two great xmas parties, many great presents, and loads of fun. I got to see some of the old people and met some new ones. All in all, Christmas was fun. I usually have problems with the holidays, and I did faced them again this year, but with the help of great people around me, everything turned out better. Thank you for all of those that spent the day(s) with me. I appreciate all of you and your ugly faces. Thank you for the cards and presents; I couldn't have asked for more. Well I could but I wont be greedy. Lol I hope everyone had fun as well.
I didn't do anything today. I just sat around, ate lunch, and slept. When I woke up, half of the day was already gone...BLAH! I went to the movies and saw Memoirs of a Geisha & Fun with Dick and Jane. Both movies were mediocre. Nothing spectacular or made me go "wow, I want to see that again!" Harry Potter still rocked my boat this year. Well that's about it for my Christmas. Kinda boring, but fun at the same time.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!
With much love from me.
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[25 Dec 2005|07:57pm] |
MERRY CHRISMUKKAH!!!!
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[21 Dec 2005|12:34am] |
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THINGS TO DO WHEN I VISIT CALIFORNIA:
. Go to the beach
. Watch a taping of The OC
. Watch The Grudge with evil David
. Eat an In & Out burger with the secret menu
. Go to China Town
. Go to Ten Renz
. Eat Shabu Shabu
. Eat at the Korean place
. Eat at the Udon place
. Eat at the cheap Mexican place in LA
. Eat at the Thai place
. Watch the sunset at the beach
. Sit at the top of a car while eating and gazing at the stars
. Meet Kayla, David's niece
. Of course meet the grandparents
. Find a celeb and take a picture :p
. Have a photoshoot at the beach
. Visit the Yaoster's & David's school
. Late night BOBA runs
. Go boogie boarding
. GO TO DISNEYLAND!!!
. Take a dive in the pool
. Smack Vincent's roommate
. Go to a Lakers game
. Walk along the shores of the beach
. Get an In & Out shirt, another one 4m a different city
. Visit: VINO, DAVID, MONA, AND ALVIN
. Pictures Pictures Pictures
. Go SHOPPING!!! Shop til I drop or run out of money.
Am I missing anything else???
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[19 Dec 2005|03:06am] |
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College and drinking.
I'm surfing through facebook.com and come to realized that a lot of the pictures are with kids drinking or getting drunk. It's like expected that once you got to college, you will pick up drinking as a hobby. I'm sure it helps a lot of people be more outgoing and carefree, but it's just something that's not appetizing to me. I'm not dissing on the people that do drink, trust me. Every Thursday night is bar party night for my school and about 3/4 of the school goes out to party. If I hate on the drinkers, I'm basically hating on everyone so I'm not doing that. I'm just wondering, what's the deal with drinking for college students? Is it a hobby, past time, something just fun to share with your friends? Have you ever been to a party where everyone's drunk off their asses and you're the only sober one there? It isn't as fun as it sounds. Especially when you start to realize how stupid everyone looks.
I cannot even stand the smell of alcohol.
I just dont know how people do it. Sure there are times when I wish I can just take a drink and be more loosened up, but I figured that I can get to that same state of mind without being under the influence. I'm always hyper and energetic. God can you imagine me drunk? I dont even want to imagine it. The truth is, I dont know if I trust myself drunk. I'm so random and uncontrollable as it is; I think drinking will only make that worse. I'm so hardheaded that I wont listen to anyone or anything. I just dont want to make an ass of myself, especially in front of those that I care about. I'm not worried that people won't take care of me or that I will do stupid things like drive home. It's just not something for me. I guess that's something I never picked up while I was in high school or college. Drinking might be fun to others, but not to me.
Drinking + College student = will NOT equal me...
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[13 Dec 2005|01:36am] |
FOR THE EVIL ONE THAT DID THIS TO ME...
Rest assured that I HATE YOU!!!
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[13 Dec 2005|01:35am] |
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[11 Dec 2005|08:00pm] |
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How nice it is to be home. Driving down the same familiar streets. Seeing the same familiar faces. Just knowing that you can drive down the road while reading a book and not hit a car or get lost is a great feeling. I missed home. Hard to believe that I would ever miss this boring place, but I do. I miss the family, the friends, and most of all, the familiarity of everything. It was the one thing that I craved the most while I was away at college. Even though I came home almost every weekend, it's just nice to be home again.
Leaving to return home was hard for me today. And I don't know why.
I am starting to pick up my old habits/hobbies again. I am taking pictures, reading, and blogging again! I just want to carry my camera every where with me, or Jen's camera right now, and just capture everything that I see. Today while I was at Barnes and Noble, I kicked myself for not bringing my camera. It was gorgeous. Rows and rows of books. New fresh books! I spent three hours in that store and spent $50. Fifty dollars that I currently don't have or shouldn't be spending. I couldn't stop myself though. Every book called out to me and told me to buy it. I narrowed it down to only four books. So proud of myself.
I bought:
. Angels and Demons
. VOGUE: Makeup (for Van)
. Tales of Mystery and Imagination : E.A. Poe
. The Handy Physics Answer Book
I justified my purchases with semi-educational/personal favorite books. Well the Physics book is about the only educational one there is. I just liked the rest. My mom originally gave me money to buy Angels and Demons, but I couldn't find it at the other three places that I went to. Instead I resulted to Barnes and Noble, the place that holds me by the neck.
I love books. New ones. My dad suggested that I go to the library and borrow books instead. The thought of touching a dirty book is so disgusting. I don't even want to read anymore so instead I just asked for money. New books are great. I just love the fresh smell, clean overs, and straight lines. Obsession I must say. If someone saw my bookcase, they would think it's straight from the book store and never read before. I keep everything nice and perfect, exactly how I first bought it. Some of the books are damaged due to borrowing from people like my sister who don't take as great care of my books. Nonetheless, they're nothing like the qualities from the library.
For those of you that haven't noticed, I've been updating a lot. I always have something to say so I just record it. There are plenty of times that I want to record my thoughts during school but school work kept me away from LJ. I miss it. I said this before and I will try to blog more often. It helps me forget and remember some things. Letting go of the past and recording my present. +)
Lately I've been taking pictures for my new room. I plan to make a wall of just my photographs. Thus, I need good ones. I am going to go through my old collection and dig up my old photos. I am sure that there are some decent ones in there. Many years of taking pictures, there's got to be a few. And rest assure that when I do, I shall post or re-post for some of them. Just for memory sake and for my own sake to remember what I took pictures of in the past. LJ sucks at going back in time. Eventually, you have to go back day by day...it takes too long so I become restless.
Well that's it for my day's adventure. I basically spent most of it in a book store looking like a nerd carrying around 15 books in her arms. Mmmm...that's about it. I'm home now.
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[11 Dec 2005|02:10am] |
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On a happier note...
I LOVE SETH AND SUMMER'S RELATIONSHIP.
The OC isn't something real or something that I would want to actually live in. However, the relationship between Seth and Summer is something that I would actually LOVE to experience. I love it how their relationship is bends, molds, and conforms to the both of them. Like this week's episode for example. Seth learned to accept that Summer is actually smarter than him while she realizes that this crazy dream of Seth's isn't actually something to shrug off as well. I know the love is artificial, but I can't help but think that that's how their relationship is like in real life. On Punk'd, when Summer's dog crashed someone's car, she cried endlessly. It was a dog that she owned with Adam and somehow, the dog meant the world to her. I dont know if she actually is an animal lover or not, but just something about the way she cared for the dog shows that she loves Adam just as much. I dont even know if this makes any sense. I just admire their relationship on the show and off the show. I just wish I had someone like that to share something that great with. +P
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[09 Dec 2005|03:15am] |
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After 5 years...
5 boyfriends later...
Over 50 layouts...
Countless hours and memories...
I CLOSED MY ASIANAVENUE WEBSITE!!!!
It was such a hard thing to do. I always kept it around for memory. It's something that's captured what I have been doing for the past five years of my life. How I grew up. The people that I've met and those that have left. All there. All in my guestbook and in my layouts. Fucking AA had to delete all of my guestbook entries except for 40! GAH...all those gone. I stopped updating, I stopped making layouts, and I stopped caring. I hated it how they ripped my memories from me. Tore it into pieces so I left. It's time to let go and time to move on.
End of one chapter. Beginning of another.
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[07 Dec 2005|01:17am] |
FEATURING: AYUMI HAMASAKI
EDITED: BY ME
( [x] )
A LITTLE RUSTY, BUT I STILL GOT IT~!!! =)
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[06 Dec 2005|03:25pm] |
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It's snowing outside. Gorgeous! Now I can go and run around like a little kid.
Today's been a very productive day. I woke up with the incentive in mind that I was going to get a job. I have a job interview today at 4:00 but then I looked outside. The streets, houses, and cars are all frosted with snow. It's like a snow storm has hit Colorado. I guess that scratches my idea for the job interview.
I cleaned my room, washed my clothes, ate lunch, and even washed the dishes. Those that know me should be very proud. Washing the dishes is a major accomplishment for me. I feel like running to the stores to grab some food, mags, and movies. I think it's best that I stay in though, the snow's too bad.
OH...I spent hours trying to find some good performers that are coming to Denver.
So far, I've found none. This sucks. Either I just missed them or they're in another continent! GAH people need to come to Colorado for a change. Entertain me, I will pay good money to see! lol =p
YES! GO 2 degrees!!! Let's all frost ourselves! +)
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[06 Dec 2005|12:23am] |
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Vincent: I lost weight, you gained weight.
Vincent: we'll equalize one day
Vincent: equilibrium
Me: Hahahaha
Me: Thanks vincent!!!
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God that's why I love you. You sure know how to make a girl feel great! t (^.^) t
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[04 Dec 2005|11:37pm] |
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So it's proven, Denver University dominates Colorado College.
Game: Friday night.
Location: Colorado Springs, CO -- CC's home game
Score: 4-2
DU WON!!!
Yup we owned them in their own town. Lol, this was probably the best game that I've ever been too. It also is the ONLY hockey game that I've ever been to. It was kinda weird to get booed at your own hometown or get hated by the people that you once lived with. Still fun though.
Game: Saturday night.
Location: Denver, CO -- DU's home game
Score: 5-1
DU WON AGAIN!!!
Two nights in a row, DU dominated. There's no doubt about it, DU completely wiped away CC this year. CC is our arch enemy too so it's great to own them. Lol, I love hockey now. It brings out the wild beast side of me. I say random things that I normally wouldn't say. Curse more than I thought that I was capable of. And screamed with all of my might until I lost my voice. All of this was worth it to see DU beat CC!
Dumb-fuck-ass-face! That was Jen and my chant. Haha fun times.
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[04 Dec 2005|09:11pm] |
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Being on break sucks when you're bored out of your mind.
Six weeks is a long time people. What am I supposed to do? I did the whole job searching thing, still no luck. I have myself a boyfriend to keep me company, that doesn't work out too well either. I have friends that are always there, who are busy with their own lives. I am just bored. The TV is out of service because I have been excising it too much. So basically I find myself wanting to hit my head against the wall due to boredom!
In other news...
Report Card for Yen Ha
Autumn Quarter 2005
Biology: A
Biology Lab: A
Chemistry: B
Chemistry Lab: A
English: A-
Pharmacology: A
GPA: 3.77
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Now this is depressing. When I saw the grades, I thought that they were pretty good, one of the best report cards that I've gotten. BUT when I looked at the GPA, it killed me. 3.77??? I HAVE ONE B! WTF?~! I have Calc and O-Chem next quarter, how do I expect myself to come out with a 3.8 or higher by the end of my four years. Tears were forming up. I've never gotten below a 3.8 in my life! Being on a 4.0 scale sucks ass I tell you! I liked it when A's meant more than a 4.0 so that way when you do get some B's, it's not the end of the world. But as for this...it is.
Christmas List 2005
[x] The OC Season 2
[] Cannon Camera S400 or S500
[x] Sweaters
[] New Glasses
[x] Christmas Eeyore for my collection
[] Picture frames
[x] Pucca stuff
[x] Hello Kitty
[] Avril Lavigne CDs (I lost them!)
[x] Kelly Clarkson CD
[x] Ashlee Simpson CD
[] VAIO laptop (hehe!!)
[] Snowboarding gloves & goggles (PINK plz)
List for Michael
[] A pony
[x] A big size Michael to keep around
[] A small size Michael to keep in my pocket
[x] Unlimited pass to borrow as much anime as I need
[x] Many XOXO
The list is actually pretty short this year. I dont know what I want. I pretty much buy myself everything that I do want that by the time that people need to get me stuff, I've already gotten it. My dorm room is highly furnished. My toes are kept warm with plenty of shoes. My back is covered with enough shirts. Legs are pretty snugged with all the pants that I got. I'm pretty much set. Of course there are those WANTS as opposed to those NEEDS, but that's pretty much it.
Anyone got anything that they would like to ask for.
Oh I think I'm sending out cards again to those that want me to. Give me your addy and watch out for the mail box. Ask those from last year, it took me awhile to get them out, but nonetheless, YOU'LL GET IT!
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[03 Dec 2005|07:15pm] |
I'm PROUD of myself.
I updated my LJ layout and posting this:
Hope you enjoy it!
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[24 Nov 2005|07:10pm] |
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HAPPY HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!
I am thankful for all the ugly people in my life, which of course includes all of you. +)
♥ mi.
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[21 Nov 2005|02:08am] |
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Sooo...it's like 2 am and I can't sleep!
I have a final tomorrow at 8am and then another one at 10am. They're back to back. I'm not going to lie, I'm kinda scared. Chemistry isn't my strongest subject and that's my first final. I luckily did well enough in Biology to not take the final in there, but I don't know about Chemistry. I studied for about three hours. That's enough I would say. Mostly review. I hope that's enough. On Tuesday, I have one final and then I'm done. Kinda excited. Although I do wish to be slacking off like the rest of the kids in Colorado and enjoy the fall break. Nope, I have to slave away for another two days before I get my six weeks off.
What do you do during a six weeks free period?
SLEEP! Hehe that'll be my answer. I'll catch up on all the TV shows that I have been missing out on and all the hours of sleep that I barely get a night. I will definitely get skinner because dorm food has added a few pounds to my belt. Exercise...that should do! I'm going to miss the dorm life. It's kinda nice to have your friends by your side whenever you need it. Getting food in the middle of the night. Seeing a certain someone three days a week. And all of that fun talks with the roomie. I'm going to miss this place for that month off but somehow, I think it will be good for me.
Life's been good to me. I have my ups and downs every day, but mostly, I'm good. Pleased with everything that's happening. School's decent, it's always there and boring as hell. Boys have been giving me problems, but what is life without them. My friends, can't ask for any more. Harry Potter rocked my world. My family are great too, I miss them a lot. It's a great thing that Van lives near. I wouldn't do without her.
I have great friends. Have I bragged about that before? Well I am bragging again.
I have my Colorado friends. This includes my high school friends and my new college friends. They're awesome. They know me for the weird nerd that I am and all the weird sayings that come out of my mouth. I laugh at the dumbest things and talk with my mouth open. My laugh sticks in their minds and they will miss it when I'm not around. Yup, I know it's true. They're awesome. They keep me going every day and make sure that I get enough sleep and studying every night.
I have my California friends. These kids are amazing. They know me inside and out. I don't even have to say a word and just sigh and somehow, they know exactly what's wrong. I love them. I come to them for everything. My foundations I call them. I'm so fortunate that I met such great, wonderful, and special people for the month that I was there. I was truly blessed and I thank them every day for being there for me. I can't heart anyone more than I heart them.
I have my family/friends. This includes my sister, Henry, Johnny, Michael, Jennifer, Bobby, Kevin, and Tiffany. We're all related to each other somehow but we're all friends too. It's kinda cool. It's a big family of love. We do a lot together which is awesome, but at the same time, you get to make bonds with your siblings that you didn't get to do it before. I heart them too.
I have Meeko. He's funny. Keeps me laughing and smiling. It's something that I really need whenever I'm stressed/down/stressed/angry. I dont know, he does his best to make me "loosen up" as he says it because I'm always so serious. I agree, I've gotten more serious over the years. I need to be more of a kid and enjoy life. So that's Meeko for ya.
Those are the people (or friends) in my life. Without them, I wouldn't function. Not even for a day. I need them to breath, eat, and sleep. Talking is what keeps me going and thanks to them, I can go pretty far.
I heart you all.
Wish me luck on finals and for those of you taking finals too. BEST OF LUCK!
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[18 Nov 2005|03:13am] |
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Harry Potter.
One word. AMAZING!
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We caught the midnight showing and it was amazing. Happy Birthday Holly. Pictures will be posted but one suggestion, GO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!! It's f*ing amazing.
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[31 Oct 2005|10:04am] |
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I'm happy, are you happy?
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
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[27 Oct 2005|02:08am] |
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I'm happy, are you happy?
I only have three more weeks of school. Isn't that crazy? Man oh man. Sad sad I say because I know next quarter will only be ten times more fun! Haha I kid.
So I won tickets to the Jason Mraz concert. It was funnnn. Jen got to meet her husband again. It was a nice reunion. He's so cute. Such a dork. I like dorky guys. Too bad I didn't know most of the songs so I kinda stood there staring at him. Haha I was so close to the stage, I felt like I could touch him. And then he threw a piece of candy that hit my head. Thanks a lot! I really liked it and the only sad part about the whole night was that Simple Plan was playing RIGHT NEXT DOOR! I loooovveeee Simple Plan. Ahh the sad tale.
It's Halloween next week, I can't believe it's a year already! I love Halloween. I dont exactly know what I am going to be this year though...although I do have some ideas. HAHAHAHA. I think this year we're just going to some haunted houses and get our butts scared. Last time I went, I spent most of the time buried into Van's jacket with my long hair all over my face. I couldn't see ANYTHING. I think it's better that way; I'm such a scaarrrdddy cat.
Well it's two and I think my insomnia should be put to sleep now. Have funnnn!!!
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[18 Oct 2005|01:37am] |
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These past few weeks have taught me a lot about myself. What's life if you're not learning right? Yup!
I've never realized how impatient I am. It's gotten to an all time low. I get so disgusted with myself at how quickly I will turn around and I try to finding my own answers, finding my own ways out. I hate waiting. I hate sitting there and feeling useless. I just want to jump out into the world head first and seek for my own answers. Sometimes I fall face flat, sometimes I dive right in. It's so unpredictable. But from now on, I'm going to try to control it. I'm going to sit here and give myself the time to study and think. Time is important and critical, but I need it. I've been so busy trying to rush through things that I can never stop and breath anymore.
I hate it how I never take my own advice.
The world is full of hypocrites and I am one. I confess, I am a horrible person. I can be the nicest person in the world to you if you serve any meaning to me, but if you dont then I am the meanest. It's a horrible trait. One I wish I can take away. I hurt so many people's feelings and I feel so cold about it. However, when one person says the smallest comment to me, anger rages through my veins. Not everyone is perfect so I'm still working on that. Acknowledging it is the first step I guess. YAY, one day...five million to go!
I hate boys. Did I mention that before? I hate boys. End of story there. There's too many heartaches to even THINK about it right now. As of now, I'll stick to my shows and movies to make me happy. I don't need a man to make me happy...I have movies for that! Haha the love of my life right now is Jake Gyllenhaal.
He's hot stuff. So go watch his new one...NOW! Haha that's my future husband. Yup Yup...
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[18 Oct 2005|01:37am] |
Sometimes you just want to hold on, but it is better to just let go
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[09 Oct 2005|12:30am] |
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I just picked up the fourth installment to The Confessions of A Shoppaholic series the other day. Reading it makes me think of the summer that I spent in California. I know it's only been two years since I've been back there, but that memory seems so far away for me now.
The book just makes me realize how much I want to be married; I want to have a husband to see every day when I wake up. I want someone to worry about where I am and if I am eating alright. I would like to have a permanent best friend with me at all times. I would just like to have someone. Of course I am getting ahead of myself and should look for a boyfriend first, but a husband would be nice right about now. You don't have to worry about finding the perfect mate and getting everything in line at the same time. Once you have the husband, you can cross that off your list of things to get and focus more on your career. I know I am still young, but isn't that the whole point of being married? To enjoy life together. What's the point of getting married in your 30s when more than a quarter of your life is gone? All those memories that you guys could have spent together, making new ones, and going down new paths. Instead, I watch all of these movies about people in the early 30s or late 20s trying to find someone, going on those stupid blind dates or joining those dating services. All of those times could be spent with someone special, someone that actually means something. I want to have someone forever and never have to worry about finding someone new. He'll be there and always be there. No more worrying about other boys or trying to impress someone. The thing with me is that I get bored so easily that no one can keep up with my pace. I need someone that can keep my interest alive and keep me guessing. I may be smart, but I want someone that is smarter than me. Find all the pathways around my mind and get to my heart. So far, no one has done that. I need someone to be smart, talented, interesting, and charming. I've gotten the charming part down with my past boyfriends. Smart and talented with some of my crushes. But no one interesting. Come on man kind, there HAS to be someone out there...right?!?!
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My friend from CA calls me drunk. It is hilarious! He's at wedding so it's not a weekend thing for him so getting a little tipsy is actually something new for him. He's completely out of it and it is just so funny to hear him cuss and slur his words. I can't imagine myself drunk. I wonder who would I call. Probably someone reliable and comforting like my sister, Vincent, or Mona; but what would I say to them? Haha it's just so funny to think about this. I truly am missing out staying at home on a Saturday night. I should be out with my friends and having fun, but instead what am I doing? Looking for Brushes for Adobe, writing emails, chatting, finding icons, and hanging out with my family. Dont' get my wrong, I love my family and the internet, but I never have those interesting tales to tell. I need to be somewhere where everything is happening...either Vietnam or California are my choices. Haha I would probably be checking out some model in VN or going to some tea place in CA. Oh the fun! Thinking of those places makes me miss the memories that I have had and the times that I've spent with wonderful people.
I specifically miss someone in CA.
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[07 Oct 2005|09:43pm] |
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It's been awhile since I've visited this place. It's so foreign to me now. I feel foreign to everything that I was once accustomed to. I've been out of it so long. It's gotten to the point where the "I'm sorry I didn't called" follows by "I feel bad for never calling, but I still think of you" to "I am just too busy to call you." I feel bad. I do care and I do miss. So dont misunderstand me and think that I am cold-hearted. I still think of Livejournal, but every day that I dont visit the place, it gets harder and harder to turn around.
It's my fifth week of college. College is there, going as usual, and boring as ever. It's nothing as exciting as high school. I find myself more secluded and isolated than ever. It's not like I dont reach out because I do. I join clubs, attend meetings, hang out, meet new people, and play sports. But nothing's the same. I miss the familiarity of things. Sometimes waking up in the morning feels like a bad vacation of some sort. I head toward a common bathroom full of girls for my daily shower and feel as if I am a guest to my own home. This is my place now, my home. Going home isn't quite the same anymore. Driving on the same roads just feel so distant somehow. I still do miss the familiarity of my traditional and bland life.
My love life is anything but tasteful. I have been invited here and there. Gotten the stares and timid guys trying to spur conversations with me, but nothing that has caught my eye. No one has interest me. Not saying that I am looking. Boys have proved me wrong lately. One day, they can be your best friends while the next day, they'll become your secret lovers. And when you don't like them back, what do they do? Head for the doors. DumbfucksI call them. If you don't have the guts to stay my friends, then you didn't have the guts to even consider dating me.
Lately I've found myself submerged in a world of studying. I have never studied so much in my life. It's not your constant staring at the notes for hours or reading the books all day long, but somehow, I always have something to do. All of my AP classes have never bombarded me with so much work. College is work work work, and I'm beginning to taste the bittersweet realization that this is my life. It will be nothing but work from now on. All work and no play will leave me a dull girl. As of now, I am the dullest girl you have ever met. Well I guess all the studying have paid off since my grades have been nothing more than satisfying. Whenever I pick up that quiz, test, or essay, a sensation sweeps over me that assures me that all of my efforts did not go to work. Finally, it all counts. Every single minute spent will be documented somehow, someway.
Who ever said living in the dorms is a nightmare? Of course there are the occasional annoying screams down the hall or the disgusting smells of the druggies, but for the most part, I enjoy it. My roommate is cool. She's nice, compassionate, understanding, and a great listener. The other one left because she couldn't stand us. I did everything in my power to make her stay as miserable as possible until she moved out. Looked like it all works because now Holly and I live in peace. The girls on the floor are sweet. The food is half decent. And the people are actually friendly. I haven't gotten anything stolen yet (knock on wood) or made any enemies. These kids are probably too busy partying and getting drunk to even bother hating on me. Plus in a world of rich brats, I'm just a commoner that somehow lucked into their world. My money is pocket change to them so I never have to worry about people stealing my stuff or jacking my car. Why would they want anything of mine when there's a shinny BMW parked right next to me? Oh the benefits of living with rich kids.
Well everyone, that's enough writing for one day. I hope you all are holding up fine.
And Brian, the girls are growing up so fast. I can't believe it when I saw them.
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[19 Aug 2005|12:31am] |
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Vietnam pictures: part two.
( & continue. )
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[14 Aug 2005|12:47am] |
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Vietnam pictures: part one.
Due to the immense amount of pictures that I took on this vacation, the pictures will be posted in sections. They will all go in order and tell a story. I hope you enjoy them! ...
( & continue. )
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[10 Aug 2005|05:56pm] |
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AHHHH!!!! I have spent more than $200 in the past few days. Doing what? Calling my cousins in Vietnam. YES, stupid mi. $.30 a minute and I dont know how I managed to talk for more than 10 hrs in the past few days. Three days to be exact. Oh my dad is going to kill me. He will slit my throat open so I can no longer talk! I am scared when my parents get the bill..hahaha. =/
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[06 Aug 2005|06:59pm] |
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I love Vietnam so much. Memories of it still linger in my head every two seconds. I can still taste the great food, smell the rain, and see the friendly faces that made my vacation so special. It's been three days since I've returned and every day I wake up thinking that I still am there. I think it's one of the best places in the world. And I can't tell if it's because of the actual place or just the people that live there. I have a connection to Vietnam that I cannot to anywhere else. It's probably because that's my mother country.
We took tons of picture. I have plenty of time to upload them so have some patience. Regardless of how many pictures I post, nothing will express how lovely the place is to me. I will definitely save my money and go back in a few years. I miss it already!!! I just wanted to buy everything while I was there. Everything was just adorable somehow and cheap too! Hehe no longer will I be able to treat a group of 6 for under $10. Well I can go on forever and ever about Vietnam but I will end it short and leave that all up to another day.
Stay tune to catch all the excitement! And a shoutout to all my cousin: Ngan, Bi, and Na. =)
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[05 Aug 2005|05:45am] |
I'M BACK!!!!
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| Tooda-loo. |
[02 Jul 2005|12:27am] |
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This is probably my last post, I swear. I know I keep saying that and keep posting things, but this is definitely it. Haha, at least before I leave. I will depart this country on the 4th of July at about 3 AM. I'll be in Japan around noonish-4 PM their time and will arrive in Vietnam at 11 PM. Crazy! That concludes the trip to about 24 hrs on the airplane including resting time in between flights.
Wooh. That was a lot to take in.
It still hasn't hit me yet that I'm leaving. Urr..I shall soon enough. I finally finished packing today, yes today. Never did I think it was so hard to pack everything that you own. I'm kidding, I only packed about 80% of my closet. But aside from the vacation, here's what's going on in my life.
Dillards need me. Still! I hate the job. My advice to anyone, never work at Dillards! My sister and I have been planning this grand scheme of how I'm going to QUIT! But this afternoon, my mom told me to go work for them until Sunday. Make some more money for CA she says...kinda changing my mind about quitting now. Gar I was so excited too! I had it all planned out. Now I'll just have to see how I feel tomorrow morning and if I'm too lazy to work. Chances are, I will be quitting this weekend.
Zeng and I are good, post-breakup. He's doing fine and I'm so happy for him. Everything is going his way and he's accomplishing so much in the month that we're apart than in most of the two yrs that we were with each other. Kinda sad on my part. Maybe it was the right move to let it go...ehh either way, can't turn back now. We're still close and best of friends. I don't get to see him as much but still think of him tons.
As for school, I'm getting excited for Fall to come around. However, I'm already finding options to leave DU and carry my education elsewhere. I guess I'll just have to see how much I'll like the school. I do know that I can study in Japan for a semester or two...yay! Can you see me in Japan? OMFG I would die. Hahaha I'm thrilled.
So my plans to lose 10 lbs before Vietnam didn't work. I worked out for two nights with Van as we danced our way into fitness. Too bad two nights won't show through my fats and I guess I can scratch that goal off my summer-to-do list. Oh well, I'll just gain more weight in Vietnam and come back extremely fat. I heard it that guys like their girls chunky now and days so maybe it'll benefit me in that department. =)
Well I should be heading off to bed now. Have fun you guys over the summer and of course I'll be back to update throughout the trip. ♥ ya tons. See you all on Aug 5th since that's when I'll return.
Adieu!
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[28 Jun 2005|10:20pm] |
Before I leave, I'm going out with a BANG!
( Uddles of pics for your enjoyment. )
I hope you enjoyed it.
If not then too bad cause
I'm going to get some food.
I'm hungry!
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[28 Jun 2005|12:27am] |
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I went home sick today from work. Surprisingly enough, they didn't give me an attitude about it nor did they fire my butt. I was on my way home when Stacia called me and asked if we were still on for lunch. I told her about how I felt and she said to stop by her house still and we'll see what we can do. When I got there, Ryan had already gotten there before me. She gave me some medicine and we drove around town before getting some food. Wings Stop is always the place to go. After that, we went to the dollar theatre to watch Guess Who. It was cute, romantic, and not as funny as I would've thought. Then we drove around to a few more places, making little visits here and there. By the end of the day, I felt fine. The headache was gone, the dizziness had stopped, and my body appeared to be getting over whatever I had this morning. I think the true medicine for my illness was to have some fun and be a kid. I've been trying so hard to work, full time, and save some money that I've barely had any time to hang out and enjoy my summer. Just funny how some trips around town with your friends can really brighten up your day. I'm glad I have such great friends that can cheer me up, even when I'm pretty sick.
I'm still debating California. I know I got the job so that I could save enough money to go, but now that I'm looking at the actual amount of money that I'm making, I think it's just about enough to cover the ticket and a little cash to spend. I dont want to go to Cali and not be able to go out because I don't have any money. Just sucks the fun out of it. Ehh I'll still think about it and considering how I want to take some money with me on my vacation, I might be more short on cash. How is it that money plays such a vital role in having fun? Gar..I hate money. It's the route to all evil.
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| Reviews |
[22 Jun 2005|11:42pm] |
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Products.
Jergens Natural Glow // Believe it or not, but this product actually works! I was surprise to see the outcome. My sister applied the product once a day for three days on her pale legs which have become as tan as mine. I worked hard to get my tan and she achieved the same thing in three days! We purchased the fair color of course so I can only image what the dark color would do to someone's skin. I highly recommend this product to those that wants a natural tan, doesn't want to spend a lot of money in the tanning salons, and wants to protect him/herself from the hazardous sun rays.
Grade: A+
Advice: Immediately wash your hands after applying or you can use gloves.
Veet! // This bladeless shaving has given me mixed feelings about how I feel about it. At first, it fused of raspberry and flowery smells in my bathtub as I'm applying it. However, after 30 seconds, this recking smell started to fuse through and suffocated me inside the bathtub. The applying part is a little difficult. It leaves your bathtub all slipper so be cautious of slipping. God knows I almost fell. I thought that the Veet would allow me to get a nicer shave faster, but in order to get the product to work, you have to leave it there for three mins. And for most people, that's longer than shaving with a regular shaver. On top of that, you have to use their bladeless shaver to remove the dead hairs. The results were good and successful. I only witness little skin reaction which disappeared within five mins. Nevertheless, the smell remained on my hands and legs...leaving me with an unhappy smell right from the shower. Bummer!
Grade: B-
Advice: USE GLOVES!!!!
Acuvue Contact Lens // They've truly disappointed me with their products. From Acuvue 2 to Acuvue Advance, I haven't been satisfied with any of their products. Despite all the advertising and costly boxes, their contact lens are just as good as some generic brands that can probably offer a much better deal. I can't say that these contacts will not work for others, but considering my situation and how I live in Colorado, it didn't work. Btw, Colorado is really dry and makes it hard for most people to wear contacts.
Grade: C
Advice: Get the trials before you buy!
Clinique Superdefense // The product served alright for all that it promises to do. I do like the fact that it has SPF 25 built into it already, cuts out the time it takes me to apply sunblock. However, the moisture that it provides isn't as good as some of their other products such as the Clinique Moisture Surge Extra. I guess different faces will react to it differently but my advice is still with Clinique's Moisture Surge Extra. Fast, easy, and reliable.
Grade: B+
Advice: Ask for a sample size before buying.
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[21 Jun 2005|03:28am] |
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I leave soon.
Sorry to disappoint you but foreign countries call my name. In two weeks, I will departure this free land. I emphasize on free because the government sucks else where, or at least where I'm going.
I've been working so much. When I signed myself up for the full time position, I wasn't aware of the actual requirements that went along with it. Such as working 36+ hrs. Six days a week. 8 hr work days. Gar, I dont like it. It's boring and you know me, I lose interest within the first two seconds.
I should really post some pictures considering it's been birthdays up the butt. I'm going so broke after spending mulla for my sister's bday, Henry's bday, Mother's day, Father's day, and my dad's bday. Too bad I can't be balling and throw my money around. If only, if only...
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[05 Jun 2005|03:07am] |
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People are drama.
I don't like drama.
Therefore, I must not like people.
Hahahaha.
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[31 May 2005|08:24pm] |
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Bitch,
What the hell is wrong with you? How the fuck do you expect me to watch you sit there and try to sabotage my sister's relationship and not say a word? God you fucking slut, I can't believe you think that by picking on my sister or her boyfriend won't provoke haters upon your ass. I have never seen anyone so ignorant to accept her own actions before in my life. Yes you know damn well what you did so don't play it like you're the victim.
If you're going to post the conversation that I had with you, post it right. Don't cut out certain things that you said to make me appear stupid or confused. Fact of the matter is that I am not stupid. I'm probably smarter than you and all of your hoochie girls combined. Don't fucking mess with my family and expect me to not say a single word to you. Though my sister can careless about your ugly ass, I do. She's my sister, how can I not protect her? Whatever, people like you are a waste of time.
Oh by the way, your little plan didn't work. Their relationship has probably gotten stronger thanks to your stupid little "mistake" so keep sitting there crying because you didn't get him this time nor did you ever have him from the start. He didn't reject you all these years for a reason you know. I've never seen anyone so desperate or pathetic in my life. Ha, trying to destroy a happy couple to try to squeeze your ass in didn't work. If anything it failed you miserably. Now you'll never get a chance with him ever again; not like you ever did. Keep trying slut, but you'll never win. Your little games might have worked on the weak-minded but you're messing with the wrong people now.
If you want to hate me, go ahead. Bring it on whore.
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[31 May 2005|08:21pm] |
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Poop. I have to quit before I start.
Today was my first training day at Dillards, one of three. It was moderately boring. Not too many videos but a ton of things to sign. I told my manager that I will be gone for the month of July and she told me that I will have to quit before I go. Sucks. I guess I won't have a job to come back to. There goes my $8.25 an hr job...as easily as it came, it went. At least I'll make some money before I leave. I have about 30 days to rack in the money and 3 days to use my 25% employee discount. Oh well, you lose some and you win some. I'll make the best at the time that I am there though. Just stinks to hear that after your first day of training. Blah.
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[30 May 2005|01:47am] |
My husband ladies and gents. Please keep the drooling to a minimal.
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[30 May 2005|01:37am] |
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BOYS FUCKING SUCK! I HOPE THEY ALL DIE.
Yes DIE!
Wipe out the whole human race, I dont give a shit. Men or boys are all alike--fuckers. All types, yes yes, I hate them all. I am going to shoot any guy that comes near me, mark my word on it.
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Why can't they be like Hayden Christensen? Damn he's fine. Now that's what I call a hot boy. Though his character turns evil in the movie and I might not know him personally, he's so gorgeous that all of that doesn't matter. His beauty blinds me and I plan to marry that. Haha...back off MONA.
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[28 May 2005|08:47pm] |
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Oh yeah. I forgot to mention, Zeng and I broke up.
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Everyone's breaking up now and days. Weird. We usually break the trend but couldn't help it this time. Problems problems problems. I'm okay and hopefully he's okay. It was an amicable break up and I hope to keep it that way. Ugly splits aren't pleasant...they're full of trash talks and stabbing-in-the-backs. We're not like that. Cross my fingers.
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| Updates... |
[28 May 2005|03:14pm] |
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It's a Saturday afternoon. Holly molly. I've been such a bum that Saturday feels like a regular day for me.
I went to the club again on Thursday. It was supposed to be a celebration for my Graduation; however, the people that invited us in the first place ended up not going there. Ironic how people are. Either way, it was an okay night. Zeng came with me so I got to dance with him. I feel out of place as usual, but I managed not to get into any fights. No cat fights for me that night. Since I'm sick too, the smoke got to me and made me cough ten times more. All in all, it was okay. Enough clubbing for me until I go to VN. Denver clubs are boring, always the same people with the same expressions on their faces. So predictable. My sister, Henry, Mike, Jen, Bobby, and Zeng sure did make it more interesting for me. I appreciate everyone trying to teach me how to dance but I can't help what my body refuses to do.
I got the job at Dillards. You're looking at the new Petite full time worker.
Yes I will be scoring some money this summer. Hopefully I'll make enough to buy a plane ticket to CA. Now I just have to start working and endure the agony of a job. Dillards seem like a cool place so I think I'll fit right in. Just stinks that I don't receive any benefits because I will be working there less than 90 days. Sorry Van to disappoint you.
Oh did I tell you I graduated?
Man Graduation was surreal. I sat there looking around like it's another regular ceremony with my peers. It's kinda sad looking back on it since I didn't fully grasp everything like I should've. Well no use in dwelling on the past, I'll always have the DVDs to remind me of Grad. Thanks to everyone that came. Especially those that I didn't anticipate coming like Meeko, Lynda, Chim, and Ly. Thanks Zeng for the huge YEN sign..haha made me laugh. And for the rest of my friends that graduated with me, thanks for the years of memories.
Oh man I'm going to go broke. The birthdays are coming up. Actually just two, but the most expensive I say. Van's and Henry's. Of course it has to be a week apart so it's not enough time to save up any money. I've spent most of my Grad money on random stuff like clothes..haha and more clothes. It's weird to plan for both sides since Henry and Van are trying to keep it a secret from each other. Only I know the plans of both sides. I kinda feel like Lord Sithius (sp?) by controlling both parties...Lol. Either way, I'm excited for that week to come because it should be a blast. Birthdays are my favorite, especially when it's for the two ugliest people in the world.
Vietnam is approaching fast as well. We have about five more weeks until we actually leave the States. Oh man, the 13 hrs ride..yes 13 hrs! But all will be better when we reach Japan and shop like crazy. Then we head to VN where we'll eat like crazy. I'm excited! Cool people are joining Van and me this summer too. It should be interesting corrupting the minds of Henry, Johnny, and Mike. I just hope that this vacation is all it's made out to be. Vietnam has never disappointed us before so I doubt it'll start now.
Let's see what the plans are for tonight....
Graduation parties. So far I've only managed to attend two of the parties that I've been invited to since prior plans have occupied my times. My deepest apologies to those parties that I didn't go to. I will, however, do my best to attend all the parties this weekend. Even if they're on the same day at the same time. Somehow Super Mi will make it to all of them. =p
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